Monday, September 30, 2013

A New Day

*sighs* Well you guys know the drill, so there is  no need for a whole paragraph saying basically that I have a life and that blogging on the regular is not a part of it. lol. In other news, today is A NEW DAY. I say it is a new day because  I was kind of inspired, well got the idea to change it up when it comes to my blog, while sitting and awaiting to get on the computer at my work-study job.

I honestly don't know what my blog is doing, as far as the direction that I want it to go, but I thought of the concept of writing my daily thoughts. I guess that was the initial aim, but who knows. lol. I really just want to get in the habit of writing everyday. SO, everyday, *crosses fingers*, I will write my thoughts for that day. Whether it be a thought  from an event, situation or maybe something I read or listened to. ANYTHING. That's going to be my move.

*sighs* Well that it is pretty much all I got for right now. Expect a daily thought coming later today. (This does not count as a daily thought.)

-Until next time

Wednesday, August 7, 2013

LOTS TO TELL (or I think so)

Well folks, there has been LOTS going on. lol. FIRST, I am done at JFP. It was a great experience. I learned a lot, I met new people, it was just GREAT.

NOW, I'm taking on another venture...RETAIL. lol. I recently started working at Ross, and I must say, it is DEFINITELY an experience. haha. When I first started, it was just so foreign. I'm used to office jobs. Retail is WAY off base for me. I've gotten used to it though, but it doesn't matter because I decided that I am quitting soon. haha.

I'm not quitting because I don't like it, but because I honestly won't have the time like I thought I would when I started. Besides, I still will be making money because I have work study AND I just want to be able to enjoy my senior year. WOOOOO!!!! lol.

Well...I believe that's everything. Hmm...I thought it was more. *shrugs* O WELL.

Until next time,

Sunday, July 7, 2013

Break Up Excuses

This makes me laugh. ENJOY!

Until next time,

Let Em' Down Easy

So there are these two guys that I am talking to, well...they are talking to me. lol. I went out with one of the guys Friday. I figured I had nothing to lose.

Well the date or whatever went well, but when we went out to eat and seeing his face across from me, I was just thinking to myself, "What am I DOING?" I mean I don't like him like that...AT ALL. lol. I just don't know how to tell him. He just seems so fragile. haha. This is DEFINITELY something that I need to work on. I can no longer drag these nice but NOT MY TYPE GUYS along. lol. There is no hope for them...I want them to know that, but in a nice way. haha.

Until next time,

Friday, June 28, 2013

TIME

So I just thought of something else. lol. This summer, I had plans. I wanted to work or intern(paid), specifically in my field and then spend the rest of my time studying for the GRE.
Well, it's already almost July and though I have an internship in my field, it is not paid so I have no money and the work I have at the JFP has really left me no time to concentrate on getting ready for not only the GRE but the LSAT as well. (I recently decided that I want to get my law degree. lol)
I am just like going CRAZY! Like I seriously need a planner where I can plan out the time to do this stuff. I mean this internship is GREAT experience, but at  the same time, I need to be planning for my future: GRAD SCHOOL. smh. Something has GOT to give.

Until next time,

GOOD and BAD

So yesterday I had an AWESOME day! First of all, it was my beastie's birthday so later that night we hung out at Club Magoos. It was both of ours first time going, but we had a GREAT TIME!!! lol. That was really my first time in a club that has a diverse group of people. lol. But even before all that, I had an assignment earlier that day where I went to a horse camp to interview students on a camp that they pretty much run and started. I had like the BEST TIME EVER!!! haha. It was totally a new experience for me. I got to meet new people and see new things.

TODAY...I was still on my high from the previous day, but yesterday's high was crushed...SLIGHTLY. I came in today, and one of the editors blew up at me, not really but it hurt a lot haha, because I didn't turn in a story at time. You should have seen my face on the inside. lol. I was just like WHAT?! I am a stickler for deadlines and I just knew that I hadn't missed a deadline. Apparently when she asked me if I could have the story in by Friday, she meant Friday morning before I came in, and not Friday before I left like she usually does.

I beat myself up mentally for like at least 30 minutes . smh. I was just so mad at myself, but then I was like, "F this spit." haha. It might not have been the best reaction, but hey. I am an extreme person at times. It either it is really good or really bad.

Note to self: Work on a happy medium. haha.

Well that all I had to say.
Until next time,

Wednesday, June 26, 2013

Changing the World

Working at the JFP, reading all the articles about major political issues and stories about finding justice has made me REALLY consider getting my law degree. I want to get involved with politics in SOME sort of way, and a law degree will definitely help me to do so. Idk. I am still thinking about it. I just know that whatever I decide to do in life, I want to be of service to others. I want to make a change in the community. I just have a lot  of ideas and opinions. I just want to be able to share them with others and impact people in a positive way.

Well...until next time,



Nothing Like Understanding

So I introduced my mom to my friend Don because of all the encouragement from others to do so. haha. When we got to my house I was so confident. I brought Don in and let him talk to my mom while I listened and gave my two cents every now and then. lol.
After about 20-30 minutes, we left. It was Don's birthday weekend. We had other things to do. lol. When we left, we both felt really good about the meeting so now it was time to PARTY. lol. So because of Don's b-day, of course things got a LITTLE crazy and so much so that I didn't make it home until after 3 a.m. that day. smh. I won't go into details. haha.
During that time my mom kept calling and leaving messages. I understood that because I didn't get home to pretty late, so yeah.
The next day I went over there initially to retrieve items that were left from the previous day, but of course I ended up staying longer. During that whole time, my mom was calling like a CRAZY person. smh. I wasn't even over there long before she called and told me to come home. I was like okay but I was really thinking WTF?! haha.
I got home and my mom wanted to talk. *rolls eyes* She sounded REALLY weird. She was just like you shouldn't be out like that with him...BLAH BLAH BLAH. I was just thinking before you met him you didn't mind. Then she said something that made me realize she was TOTALLY confused.
Apparently, my mom thought that Don and I were dating. 0_O REALLY?! I cleared it all up and she was just looking some type of way. haha.
I am just glad that all of that got straightened out. Moral of the story: DON'T ASSUME.

Until next time,

Monday, June 17, 2013

Internship Goals

So...I told you guys about how I got this internship with Jackson Free Press, which is so awesome, but I felt really intimidated when I started. There are all these GREAT people here. They know what they are doing, and here I am this...AMATEUR. haha. My skills don't even compare to all that they do. smh. TERRIBLE. Well today we had an intern workshop. We introduced ourselves and kind of talked about what we want to get out of this internship and then we talked about what JFP was all about to us. Then a previous intern came in to talk to us about his experiences. While he was talking, I was just thinking to myself, "WOW. I could be like this guy. I could be GREAT." I want to be a great intern. And even more than that, I want to be able to step out of comfort zone and really get to know these people. I mean I have a whole summer with them. That is like two more months! lol. I just want to not compare myself to the people I work with and be intimidated by them. I want to be comfortable enough where I can come and talk to them and ask for advice. *crosses fingers* haha.

Until next time,

Saturday, June 8, 2013

Coming Clean

So when I was hanging out with Don on Friday, yesterday, my mother called. Smh. Of course she asked questions about who I was with. I wasn't exactly ready to tell my mom that I was with this 23-year-old guy, even though he is ONLY a friend. Its just that I have always been really lowkey when it comes to introducing people to my mom. Don told me that I should be more honest with her, because she when I go places and I tell her who I am with, she will always know that person and she will know that she has nothing to worry about. I will be in safe hands. PLUS, I won't feel so bad about not telling her everything. I mean I want to because it will definitely make us have a stronger relationship, which is what I want. It is just I don't know how to go about starting that conversation. *shrugs*

Until next time,

Thursday, June 6, 2013

*sighs* facebook

SO...I know I said yesterday that I really didn't want to participate on Facebook, but I believe that is kind of impossible now that I think about it. I have already posted new things and added people and all that jazz. I have already started the beginning phases of getting sucked in. lol smh. Hopefully it doesn't get out of control. And I HOPE that this is my last social media network that I join. I mean...I am already on a billion sites. haha smh.

Until next time,

Stepping Out Part II

Hey you guys! About a week ago, I posted something about stepping out and trying something new by accepting the position as an administrative assistant at an all girls camp in Minnesota. I thought about it, weighed the pros and cons, and the cons won. lol. After that whole thing, I was wondering what I would do for the summer. "How can I step out NOW?" haha. Well, one of my church members told me about an internship availability at JFP (Jackson Free Press). I applied, though I did not believe I would get it, but I hoped in the back of my mind that I would. Today it was made official. I GOT THE INTERNSHIP!!! haha. I am blessed for the opportunity. And I thank GOD that he thought I was good enough to take on the position. I am glad that I stepped out, and I know it won't be the last time that I do so.

Until next time,

Get With the Times

So cheerios has a new commercial featuring a white woman, a black husband, and their biracial daughter. In the article I read, (when you click on the word cheerios you will be able to see it), it talks about how a lot of Americans were outraged by the commercial. REALLY?! Like I don't understand. In the year 2013 being biracial is a common thing. Interracial couples and biracial children is nothing new, but I guess there are still plenty of people who don't accept that concept. I believe that people should just GET WITH THE TIMES!!! I love that Cheerios is standing there ground and keeping the commercial despite major disagreements. They are showcasing an America that has been here for a while, but other major companies are too afraid to illustrate. Watch the commercial and let me know what you think.

Until next time,

Wednesday, June 5, 2013

FACEBOOK

So...I am FINALLY on Facebook. lol smh. I know I am probably like a MILLION years late haha, but I only got on there so that I can upload pictures to my church's FB page. I do NOT plan to be on there for anything other than to upload pictures. I prefer the other social media websites that I am on. If I keep telling myself this, I might actually believe it, and DON'T get hooked to FB. *crosses fingers* lol smh.

Until next time,

Monday, May 27, 2013

Stressin' Me

So yesterday was our Pastor's Anniversary, so it was a BUSY day yesterday. People were running around after church trying to get stuff together. MAYHEM. lol. But since our church has somewhat of a small congregation, some of the same people end up always doing something when it comes to programs. I happen to be one of those "same people." haha. I don't mind...at times, but yesterday was DEFINITELY one of the days that I minded. Smh. I said yes to everyone asking me to do stuff because I don't want to be disobedient, but it was the fact that people kept coming to me left and right. It was too much for me to handle. Add that with the fact that I was on my period, hungry, sleepy, my feet were hurting and my dress was too tight. All that together, I was NOT in the mood. smh. I was feeling overwhelmed and NEGATIVE in the house of the LORD. NOT COOL. I eventually got my life together and had a GREAT time celebrating our pastor and GOD for allowing us to have such a great shepherd. Sometimes I just have to breathe and not let myself get so overwhelmed. Smh. Not a good look or feeling.

Until next time,

Friday, May 24, 2013

Dirty Laundry

So...I was reading a blog post about this song. Apparently the blogger felt that this song was a weak attempt of Kelly Rowland trying to stay in the spotlight by airing her "dirty laundry" about how former bandmate/friend Beyonce' treated her through the years. The article was VERY intriguing, but when I scrolled down to the comments, they didn't correspond to what the article was saying AT ALL. I just HAD to listen to the song, so I went on youtube to listen. I played the song, and I in NO WAY agree that Kelly Rowland is bashing Beyoncé. Kelly is merely telling of what it was that she was going through and feeling at the time. The people on youtube and the comments from the article corresponded with what I was thinking. Maybe that blogger is just REALLY confused. smh. Listen and let me know what you think.

Until next time,

Thursday, May 23, 2013

Stepping OUT

I have YET to hear back from the internship that I applied to, and it is REALLY getting to me. I mean like I have nothing to do during the day. smh. I can't deal. WELL...while I was on my laptop yesterday, the daily usual, an email was sent to me from the Career Services Center at my school. The email was about a job that was still available. that of COURSE appealed to me. "helLO!!! I'm unemPLOYED!!!" haha. So I looked to see if they had something for my major, and they DID. There was one thing though. The job was for like a summer camp in Minnesota. That wasn't even the bad part. The part I was concerned about was the job description. It was SO MUCH STUFF!!! I mean it all sounded cool and fun, but I didn't know if I would be able to handle it. *sighs* I want to step out of my comfort zone, but I am just a little apprehensive. I mean...what if I am not good enough? What if I can't handle the job? Smh. So many questions. I'm just waiting on the right answer. I'll let you know what I decide.

Until next time,

AGGRESSIVE

So I went to see this guy  a couple of days ago who wanted to see me before he went back to his hometown of Houston for the summer. In the spirit of a "new me," I went. Plus, I had crap else to do. haha. So I get over there and everything is cool. We are just talking. I found out new things about him, like the fact that he is a TEACHER. ...WOW. I didn't know that. Then we talked about other stuff. He is DEFINITELY a talker. There were no awkward moments. He wouldn't let there be any. lol. Then it started to get quiet. We were both getting sleepy. Well, I know I was. He was rubbing my feet. That did it for me. *raises hands in the air and lifts head back while saying "YAAAS!"* haha. YES...it was THAT good. I leaned on him and I started to close my eyes. It was just peaceful. Then he started rubbing on me. I didn't mind though because it didn't go past my thigh. But then he started to move a little further and I still okay somewhat, because a part of me wanted him to go further. But then, he started doing too much. He was getting a little aggressive. I was not ready. Smh. Not for him anyways. lol. I politely and CUTELY got up before he tried harder to attack me. Smh. *sighs* Where are the good guys??? Wait the good AND attractive guys??? haha.

Until next time,

Saturday, May 18, 2013

My Own Space

I have a brother that is only four years younger than me. I have a car. ...I think you know where this is going. When he was younger, he would automatically go with my mom or dad places, but now he wants ME to take him places. I DON'T LIKE THAT!!! When I am in my car, a lot of times I want to be by myself. I don't want my brother tagging along, even if we ARE going to the same place. smh. SHEESH. I mean is that so wrong??? *waits* I didn't think so. lol. *sighs* Well hopefully that can change soon. I can't deal.

Until next time,

Friday, May 17, 2013

20 Things You Should Know How To Do Before You Graduate College

By Sarah Kahwash in After College
Girls go to college to get more knowledge… but also just to grow up. Hopefully, you’ll learn just as many life lessons in your four years of college as you will facts from your textbooks. To guide you, Her Campus has a checklist of everything you should know how to do before graduation day.

1. Defend yourself. Take a self-defense class, invest in mace, and channel Sandra Bullock in Miss Congeniality (Sulley from Monsters, Inc. works, too). You never know when you’ll need to get yourself out of a tough situation. Check out Girls Fight Back, which provides information, encouragement, and an online directory for self-defense programs near you.
2. Iron your clothes. Wrinkles should be associated with wisdom and dried fruit, not your clothes. Sport them incorrectly and you’ll look like the sloppiest Jane in any professional setting.
3. Keep a clean online presence. The world has (reluctantly) forgiven you for your embarrassing, neon-flashing Xanga account from seventh grade, but you’re older and wiser now. Natalie Hage, a 2012 Ohio State graduate who is now a medical student at the University of Toledo, says being appropriate on the web is just as important for grad school admissions as it is for finding employment. As a start, Natalie suggests to “look at how strict others in the office or program keep their image clean for examples, and go from there.” At the very least, know how to manipulate your social media privacy settings and how to restrain yourself from littering your friends’ Facebook walls and Twitter feeds with poop jokes and comments like “teehee!”
4. Have company over. Sure, you were nice enough to let your friends crash at your place a few times in college. But if you’re doing any real party throwing or guest hosting, make sure to replace your Solo cups with nice glasses, your futon with a real bed, and that beer pong table with a more legitimate method of entertainment.
5. Make yourself a meal that doesn’t involve Ramen, fast food, or takeout. In college, we cut you some slack. Now that you’re a real adult, treat yourself to something that doesn’t come from a pizza box. Bon Appétit Magazine has some easy recipes to get you started.
6. Negotiate effectively with your parents. House rules may still apply when you’re at home, but your parents shouldn’t be ruling your life altogether. That said, you should be able to establish your independence from them in a polite way, i.e., “I appreciate your years-long insistence that beets are healthy and delicious, Mommy, but regarding the latter adjective, I respectfully disagree.”
7. Negotiate effectively with your employer. You should be able to discuss deadlines, hours, and salaries without crying, quitting, or throwing up a “talk to the hand.” That may have looked cool in 1999, but now you’d just get fired.
8. Write a (quality) thank you note. Even if you find etiquette silly and you enjoy petty means of rebelliousness, suck it up and learn to write an articulate, personalized thank you note. It’s simply a kind thing to do and it will reflect well on your own character, in both personal and professional situations.
9. Be honest with your doctor. As cute as it was when 15-year-old you acted utterly confused as to how you contracted mono, there’s no use in being bashful or deceptive when it comes to your health. Ask questions, voice concerns, and have trust and confidence in your doctor.
10. Introduce yourself professionally. Be prepared to do so via email, on the phone, or with a firm handshake, because a subtle nod and a “sup, brah” won’t work quite as well in the office as it did in your freshman dorm.
11. Prioritize. This can mean waiting 15 minutes to respond to a text from your boyfriend until after you’ve given an upset friend your undivided attention, choosing to chip away at your mountain of work instead of spending the night out, or finding a way to get a full night’s sleep [sleepyti.me].
12. Deliver a sincere apology. Puppy eyes + “I sowwy” = Fail. Averting your eyes + Hoping the problem will go away = Also fail. You’re bound to make a few mistakes over the next 80 years; apologizing for them appropriately will both help you bounce back and improve your personal relationships.
13. Ask a guy out. If you never try, you’ll never know (Coldplay said that, so it must be true). Know how to go for it if you’re interested. Worst case scenario, it will still make for a good story.
14. Turn a guy down. You’ve come a long way since breaking up with your middle school boyfriend over AIM. Hopefully, another decade of experience has taught you how to turn him down the right way: clearly, kindly, and in person this time.
15. Manage your budget. Allowances and piggy banks are things of the past. It’s up to you to keep track of your expenditures and exercise self-control. “There’s nothing wrong with being broke, but you have to know when you can afford to go out,” says Lori Hage, who graduated from the Ohio State University this spring. So treat yourself once in a while, but keep your money in mind.
16. Fly solo. Even if your college wasn’t on the opposite coast and you never studied abroad in Ethiopia, chances are you’ll be making trips other than family vacations as an adult. Make sure you’re capable of travelling independently, packing lightly, and assuming responsibility for your own ticket, gate, and connection details.
17. Make a toast or an announcement. It turns out public speaking was not just a class high school administrators used to torture students. Learn to express yourself while staying calm, whether at a wedding or in the workplace.
18. Do the dirty work. If you’re living on your own, neither your dad nor the boys down the hall will be able to squash a bug, change your tires, or take out the trash for you. Hip-hop artist Webbie once posed the question: “Independent — do you know what that mean?” It means figuring out this kind of stuff by yourself.
19. Keep up with the news. Do yourself a favor and read a newspaper, or set your homepage to the website of a trustworthy news source, like CNN, ABC News, or the Wall Street Journal. Whether on a date or in an interview, you should be able to distinguish between Syria and Siri.
20. Know yourself. Take some time for introspection before you graduate, whether that means challenging your own beliefs and finding yourself spiritually or figuring out your true bust size. We’re not sure which is more difficult.
http://www.hercampus.com/career/after-college/20-things-you-should-know-how-do-you-graduate-college

Thursday, May 16, 2013

21 Days After My Birthday

Hola. Como esta? lol. That was my little Spanish section. haha. But anywho, it is 21 days after my 21st birthday and I am feeling BLAH. It has nothing to do with my age or anything. It has to do with the fact that I am at home doing NOTHING all day. SMH. I am still waiting to hear back from the internship that I applied to, but the waiting is killing me. It is DEFINITELY the hardest part. smh. It's okay though because I KNOW that I am going to get it. In the meantime, I have just been chilling. I have mainly been hanging out with my BRO. Not my real brother of course. lol. He started calling me his little sister after a few times of us hanging out. He said he always wanted a little sister so YEAH. haha. We had a sister-brother day a couple of days ago. We got some ice cream and watched a movie. I also talked to him about my guy issues. If he's going to be my older brother, then I feel like he should know what is going on with me. haha. And maybe he would be able to give insight into his people. lol smh. It was a GREAT day. I like days like that. *sighs* Well...I think that has all that I have been up to. Hopefully I start to get a little bit more productive.

Until next time...

Wednesday, May 15, 2013

Another Dating Video Post

I just saw this video and it made me laugh. Hope you enjoy it!

Until next time,

Monday, May 13, 2013

First Dates

I really liked this video when I saw it a few days ago. I thought it was befitting to post it because of my first date that I had tonight. I hope you ENJOY!

OFFICIAL date

SO...with me turning 21, I have decided to step out on a limb when it comes to guys. I am trying to be less picky. lol. So with that being said, there is this Sigma guy that recently crossed who has taken an interest in me. The thing is, I am NOT interested him...at ALL. Well last week he text me saying that we should hangout. He said that we should have already hung out, but ANYWHO. So in the spirit of things I said okay, not realizing that he would make plans to hangout so SOON. We had a day schedule, but we had no activity planned. We delayed that until another time though. A few days ago, he called telling me how he had thought of something for us to do. He told me that he was going to cook for me. 0_o This was my face. lol. I mean...no guy had ever done that for me. I thought it was sweet. I was hesitant to say yes, but in the end I did. Today, the day of the date, I was anxious and nervous. I didn't really know what to expect. This was my first real OFFICIAL DATE. Yeah I know. I might be a little behind, but that's okay. Haha. But I finally get to his apartment, and I see his roommates. This was a good thing...SOMEWHAT. It made it less awkward. It ended up being a really good night. And yes the roommates eventually left the room, not the apartment. Haha. But ut we ate and watched the game. We had nice conversation. When I was ready to go, because I wanted to be a respectful daughter, he walked me to the car and we talked some more. Overall, the night was great, but I still don't like HIM. lol smh. But I am proud of myself that I went through with the date and didn't chicken out. lol. Hopefully, I continue to grow and mature. And who knows, I could find a great guy soon. *smiles*

Until next time,

18 Days After My Birthday

Yeah yeah yeah. I KNOW. I may have had missed a FEW days of posting things...AGAIN haha. But I'm not going to bore you with the post I end up posting every few months about how I should do better. smh. So I am just going to get right to the point: I'M 21 YEARS OLD!!! lol I am SUPER excited. Like I really canNOT believe that I am 21. I don't necessarily feel a change, but because I am 21, I feel the NEED to change. I mean...I'm getting OLDER, though I am still young. lol. I just want to switch it up; step out of my comfort zone; improve mySELF. I just want this to be the start of something new. *sighs* I  can't wait for the new adventures that await me in the future.

Until next time,

Monday, April 1, 2013

CONVERSION

So on the car ride back from Hattiesburg yesterday, my mom and dad were talking about something they were discussing in Bible Study. They were so discuss their conversion experience. It got me to thinking. I got baptized when I was 11, but I don't think I have yet to experience a true conversion. I still have a lot of growing to go. I mean I'm only 20 years old. I haven't lived life yet. I feel like until I go through the valleys, I won't be able to truly experience the mountain tops. I'm just saying. Of course I am constantly striving for greater, but I can avoid what has already been ordained for me. Well that's my knowledge for the day. hahaha

Until next time...

Technical Difficulties

So I had tried to post video up about me talking about spicing up my blog more me starting the official countdown to my birthday, (24 days until my 21st birthday), but I was having too many technical difficulties. *sighs* Hopefully I am able to fix that problem so I can get videos up on my blog.

Until next time...

Saturday, March 30, 2013

FAKE and PHONY

Okay. So I know I have not been writing everyday, but I am still doing WAY better than I was. That's my justification. lol. But anyway. It is everyone's favorite time in college, ELECTION SEASON!!! *shows false excitement* haha. I absolutely HATE this time. Unwanted flyers, which means EXTRA garbage to throw away, all this talk about what people can or cannot do, and most of all...FAKENESS. People you see all the time, but they NEVER speak to you, all of a sudden want to speak because they want people to vote for them. SMH. paLEASE! Don't speak to me just to get a vote. Speak because you want to. SMH. The NERVE. I will be glad when this is over.
Until next time..

Sunday, March 24, 2013

One Thing Down

So I finally finished my paper!!! This is GREAT news since it took me forEVER to finish. That's why I've been M.I.A. this weekend. Ii had to handle business. I'm glad thats done with, but of course there is more to do. *sighs* #lifeofacollegestudent

Until next time...

Friday, March 22, 2013

Give Me Strength

There have only been two times in my life that I have been so mad/frustrated that I started to cry. Those two times were 1: When my phone got stolen and I bought a new phone for $250 from craigslist and found out it was stolen, and 2: TODAY. There is this class that I have to take that I absolutely HATE, but that is because the professor is an old woman, who thinks her class is competing with her, and is always on the attack when we just want to learn. Today her crazy antics got the best of me because I feel like I am trying so hard in her class. I'm doing my work and everything that she asks of me, but she makes me feel incompetent. I do NOT like that feeling. NO ONE would. I'm not going to drop her class though like some of my other peers. I will continue to stay in her class and try not to let her get to me. I just know that I will have to pay extra hard for strength and patience. I know GOD will take care of me, and I will end up coming out of the class with a great grade. *sighs* lol

Until next time...

Thursday, March 21, 2013

Short Live

First of all, I'm sorry that I didn't post anything yesterday. I was consumed with school work. I still am, but this time I have a little bit more time to get it done. SO... about my fast from initiating convos with guys first...that was a FAIL. lol smh. I realized that that is not for me. haha. I started that fast so I would not always be texting guys first, especially for the guys who don't even respond to my messages. That was the purpose, but I don't need that anymore because now I only text for LEGIT reasons. lol. I know what you are thinking, "It's only been two days." haha. I KNOW! I'm doing better with that though. I'm speaking it until the world. lol.

Until next time...

Tuesday, March 19, 2013

Is It Too Much?

So...I was on youtube yesterday listening to a song by Kelly Rowland and in one of the comments, it referenced this song so i typed it in to listen to it because I had never heard it before. After listening to it, i admit that I wasn't a fan and i'm still not, but i do LOVE Beyonce. I was done with the song after that. Today i got on yahoo and saw this 'beef' between Keyshia Cole and Beyonce regarding the song. Cole basically has STRONG opinions of dislike for the song. I mean i feel like to each is on. I don't blame Cole for saying what she said about the song. It's her opinion. I mean i personally don't feel like this song is Beyonce's speed, and the content itself is just UGH, but that's just me. A lot of people have something to say about this record, but for those people who have not yet heard it, here it is. Let me know what you think.

 

Cut It Out

So a month ago I decided to do a personal fast from fast food and my favorite candy ever, Mike and Ike. lol. It has been pretty successful so far, but today I got the idea of fasting from something else...GUYS. lol. I won't cut them off completely, but I won't initiate texting conversations with any. Yeah i know. It might be a little extreme and a tad bit cray-cray but...WHY NOT??? Guys get me unfocused because i tend to wonder if they are going to call and all this other blah blah BLAH. I realized I have more important things to focus on. I will be a senior next year so I'm focusing on graduating and getting into grad school. THAT'S A LOT. lol. Of course it will be hard but I can do it. I will of course have updates on how I am doing, hopefully all good things. lol

Until next time...

I need to do better...

I started off so nice at the beginning of the year. I was posting stuff on a regular basis but after my phone was stolen, I slowed down...A LOT. lol. I have just had a lot going on. Between school, personal and church, I've been PRETTY busy. But one thing that was said in one of my classes yesterday motivated me to get back at blogging. Walter Mosley, an author we are talking about in my Black Authors class said that if you want to be a writer, you have to sit down and write, even when you don't feel like it. I AGREE! lol. I am going to start making myself write...starting today. I'm out for now, but I will be back.

Until next time...

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Live and Learn

So I haven't posted in a while, which is pretty normal for me, but this time there was a legitimate reason this time. haha. My phone was stolen three weeks ago and I was really sad and mad about the whole situation. i was phoneless for like the first few days and through many failed ideas of trying to get another FREE phone, i decided to try Craigslist. I never tried it, but I heard that I would be able to find much cheaper phones than the one C Spire was offering. The first phone I found was an Iphone  4 for $200. I thought that was a great price. So I called, he answered, and we set up a time to me. Unfortunately he never showed. When I tried calling his phone, he didn't answer. I was disappointed, but nonetheless I tried Craigslist one more time. A few days later, I found an Iphone 4s 16gb for $250. That was better than the first deal. I called the guy to set up a day to meet, and we met. This time I had back-up though. We were meeting at night and I didn't know if he was crazy or not. Turns out he wasn't crazy, he was a thief. The guy sold me a stolen phone. I cried at C Spire when they told me the news. I just didn't believe people actually did stuff like that. SMH. Boy was I naive, but not anymore. After a comforting talk with my dad I felt better. You're not real until you make mistakes and learn from them. It shows growth. I might not have my Iphone anymore, but I'll eventually get one. Things could be so much worse.  I'm grateful for the lesson.
Until next time...

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

TAKE A CHANCE

So last week I was debating whether or not I should go to an interest meeting for a dance team at my school. I didn't know what to expect, and I was really just NERVOUS. I ended up going though. And from that, I was debating of I REALLY wanted to tryout or not. I hadn't danced in YEARS, and I didn't think I was good enough. I mean...everyone on the team is like aMAZING. I went to the first day of tryouts though. I'm happy I went. I applied to an internship too. It's on NY and they don't provide housing, but I still wanted to apply. I also agreed to cover a convocation held at our school for a Jackson newspaper. I was nervous about all these things, and still is because they are still going on, but it just showed me that sometimes you just have to take chances. How else would you know if you are good at something if you don't try??? I hope I succeed at all that I seek, and make sure I take the opportunities that are given to me. I mean...who KNOWS what can happen?

FIRST WEEK OF SCHOOL

So it's the first COMPLETE week of school, and it was kind of BLAH. I mean with the rain and 2 LONG afternoon classes,...SMH. It was NOT what was hot. Lol. I can DEFINITELY tell I am in my major. There is SO MUCH READING that I have to do this semester. Smh. "I'm not READY!" *kevin hart voice* I just hope that I can stay focused and get my work done. Of course I'll update on how that goes. Lol.