BREAKAWAY

So this past Saturday, i had a breakdown while driving home from school. It was long overdue. I had been feeling real UGH over the past couple of weeks. That night, I decided that I would turn my phone off for the week. I would only turn it on for Thanksgiving, but after that, it would go back off until the Sunday before I go back to school. It's Tuesday, and I kinda don't miss my phone. First of all, no one was checking for me anyways. I guy I likED won't text me back and just WON'T TEXT ME, and I'm NOT the kind of person who is going to keep trying when I'm not getting a response. No MA'M. El.oh.el. So far, I have felt no need to look at my phone. Well...actually I have, but surprisingly...only to look at the time. It's been really refreshing not to worry about anyone or anything. I'm around the people that I want to be around, so therre is no one that I want to call. Hopefully by the end of the week, there will be a change within me, and I go back to jsut being me and not worrying about STUPID GUYS, feeling on the outside and all the other sad emotions I've been feeling lately. I feel refreshed and renewd. *all smiles*...HOPEFULLY. El.oh.el.

SO MUCH TO SAY

I know this is a little late, but I voted in this year's presidential election...my FIRST, and the person I voted for...WON!!! O YEAH! GO OBAMA! GO OBAMA! El.oh.el. I was SUPER DUPER OOBER excited. To be on Jackson State's campus, with all these people gathered together watching the presidential results and celebrating...nothing could've compared. It was like the best moments. No matter who you were, everyone was hugging, high-fiving, dancing and cheering with each other for a great cause. That was one of the highest I have felt. I wish every moment could be as exciting. *sighs* But it's not. Over the past few weeks...I've been feeling UGH. BEYOND ugh actually. It's just a lot has been going on with me mentally. EVERYONE knows that I am a DEEP thinker. With the stress of financial issues, stressfrom school and future endeavors, feelings of being alone, and issues with a guy, i've been a HOT MESS lately. SMH. With this break, and another one coming up, hopefully I'll be able to get it together, and I won't have a breakdown like I did a couple days ago. MAN...that was HORRIBLE. I literally cried while driving. At that very moment I felt a release, but in no way did I feel 100%. Well...in due time.