New Beginnings

I know I haven't blogged in some time, but since it's close to the end of the year, I just HAVE to blog before the NEW YEAR. *sighs* OKAY...since it's almost NEW YEARS, it's only right to recap this year and to get ready for 2012. This year has been pretty great. Well...REALLY great. I have nothing to complain about. I'm healthy, FABULOUS, el.oh.el., a sophomore in college, doing well in school, and all that other good stuff. I also learned a lot about myself. And of course I'm still learning. I mean...I'M ONLY 19 YEARS OLD!!! El.oh.el. There's A LOT more that I have to learn. I had a great boyfriend. I lost a great boyfriend. I met some crappy guys. I made some lifelong friends. I learned about some people that I thought were close to me, but...YEAH. I'm ACCEPTING the fact that I'll be turning...*inhales and exhales*...20. *sighs* SEE...THAT'S PROGRESS. El.oh.el. I'm maturing, but not letting go of my fun-loving youthful side. I'm not quite ready to turn in my "O YEAH...I'M YOUNG" card. El.oh.el. I am looking to the future though. 2012 is gonna be EVEN BETTER, and I can't wait. NOW...for these people with these New Years resolutions. I've never really been big on that sort of thing. I think if you need to make a change in your life, you should go ahead and make that change. Don't wait until New Years. DON'T PROCRASTINATE. You know how the saying goes: "Procrastination is like  masturbation. You're screwing yourself." BESIDES...who cares what you plan on doing in the new year...JUST DO IT. Especially when you know that one person who makes a New Years resolution EVERY YEAR , but they NEVER do anything about it. ...REALLY?!  Don't talk about it. Just do it. Remember these tips for the New Year, they can come in handy. So reflect on this year and get ready for the new year.
-See you guys in 2012(unless I log in before then.)

Recognize the Signs

OKAY...so Finals are here, well...WERE here. Ummm... I'm writing this blog a LITTLE late. SMH. Eloh.el.  SO...ANYWAYZ. Since it WAS like the ending of the semester, I wanted to hang with some of my friends before we got out for break; one in particular was my friend J.B. He is a GREAT friend, and I hvn't really had the chance to hangout as much this semester, because of our schedules, so I thought this would be the PERFECT time. I didn't just want to hangout for like a few hours, I decided that I wanted to spend the night at his apartment. ...YEAH...I KNOW. It kinda sounds like a BAD IDEA, but I wasn't thinking that at the time. I just really wanted to spend time with him...SO I DID. But on my way to his apartment, I experienced some signs that I SHOULDNT'VE been there. *sighs* OKAY. So I was hanging ot with my girls. We were having a good time laughing, talking, and chilling, before we got out for break. Around midnight, I left the fun to go hangout with J.B. When I got in my car, I accidentally let down my window, and when I tried to let it back up, it wouldn't. SMH. (SIGN #1) I tried EVERYTHING, but none of that worked. I just decided to drive on, and graually let up the window that way. I ended up having to circle his apartment TWICE before the window went all the way up. Now that was done with, I had to find a parking space, but there was nowhere to park. (SIGN #2) UGH. After about 10 minutes, I finally found what I THOUGHT was a good parking space, so I just left my car there and went inside.  When I opened the door, I was greeted by like 7 guys playing cards in the living room area. *pauses* AWKWARD. El.oh.el. (SIGN#3) I just went in his room and waited for him to come in  there. While I was getting things situated, he appeared behind me. I was happy to see him. :-) El.oh.el. We hungout and just chilled. It was a GREAT night. *sighs* So the next morning, I woke up a little early so I could study for my exam that I had at noon. I got my studying done, and then it was time for me to go take my exam. He walked me to my car, but that was because I made him. El.oh.el. So we're walking out to my car, and I don't see it. I was FREAKING OUT. When I got closer, my car was DEFINETLY not there. The lady in the restaurant nearby, walked out with a business card, and she told me that my car had been towed. R U KIDDING ME?!?! I was crying. J.B. tried to comfort me. SMH. It was a POOR attempt, but I appreciated it. It didn't matter tho, cuz I was still upset. I had an exam to take in like 40 minutes, and it was on the other side of the school. UGH. And then I had no car. I called the towing people to find out the information on my car, and they said it would cost $133.00. ...Ummm...EXCUSE ME??? I was like so...UGH. i just decide to leave. My exam was about to start, and I needed to stop some places before I went to take my exam. SMH. Everything ended up going well. I did a nice job on my exam, I got my car, and all the other stuff I had to do. But...the whole situation had me thinking. Like...I didn't want to do that anymore; hanging out like that. All those signs, and Ididn't recognize them. I wasn't supposed to be there, but I was trying to do my own things. I am a believer that GOD sends speaks to us through signs and stuff like that when he wants us to know something, but it is up to US to listen to them, and I DEFINETLY ignored these signs. SMH. I just hope the next time I am able to recognize the signs before something as bad or even worse than getting my car towed happens. This was definetly one of those life lessons type deals. It helped me to see what's right for me right now, and what I should be doing, and who I should be with. I just hope it doesn't happen again. Well...
UNTIL NEXT TIME.

SO That's All You Want From ME?!?!

I've always heard people say "All guys want one thing" (not to ME, but on t.v. and stuff. El.oh.el.), but I never really paid much attention to that. My ex and I broke up like 5 months ago, and I really want to start back with a relationship. Especially since I'll be turning 20 soon, which is making me feel HECKA OLD. I just feel like I should start getting my life and stuff in order. You know...like a career, relationship, and all that stuff. Basically I'm going through a mid, MID-life crisis. El.oh.el. So I've been talking to a few guys, well...they started talking to me, and it's been going good. But of course that only lasts so long. *rolls eyes* I recently found out that all the guys that was talking to me, only wanted one thing:SEX. *rolls eyes again* UGH. Like where do I have to go to find a guy who's BOYFRIEND material, someone who doesn't want that from me, and isn't HARASSING me to get it. Like what the flip is wrong with these guys??? Like I don't know what they're USED TO, but I'm not girl that they are looking for, and they're DEFINETLEY NOT the guys for me. *sighs* Like why is this so hard?!?! :-( I mean...I'm not DESPERATE or anything. I'm not thinking that every guy I see is gonna be "THAT ONE." It's just...eye.dee.kay. It just takes time I guess. When it happens...it will happen. I just can't force anything...no matter how FRUSTRATING it gets. And it most certainly gets frustrating. *sighs* Well until next time....