TAKE A CHANCE

So last week I was debating whether or not I should go to an interest meeting for a dance team at my school. I didn't know what to expect, and I was really just NERVOUS. I ended up going though. And from that, I was debating of I REALLY wanted to tryout or not. I hadn't danced in YEARS, and I didn't think I was good enough. I mean...everyone on the team is like aMAZING. I went to the first day of tryouts though. I'm happy I went. I applied to an internship too. It's on NY and they don't provide housing, but I still wanted to apply. I also agreed to cover a convocation held at our school for a Jackson newspaper. I was nervous about all these things, and still is because they are still going on, but it just showed me that sometimes you just have to take chances. How else would you know if you are good at something if you don't try??? I hope I succeed at all that I seek, and make sure I take the opportunities that are given to me. I mean...who KNOWS what can happen?

FIRST WEEK OF SCHOOL

So it's the first COMPLETE week of school, and it was kind of BLAH. I mean with the rain and 2 LONG afternoon classes,...SMH. It was NOT what was hot. Lol. I can DEFINITELY tell I am in my major. There is SO MUCH READING that I have to do this semester. Smh. "I'm not READY!" *kevin hart voice* I just hope that I can stay focused and get my work done. Of course I'll update on how that goes. Lol.

New Years Resolution

Just in case you haven't noticed, I'm making up for the MANY times I just DON'T post things. Haha. SORRY. But Christmas is just about over, and the next holiday is New Years. Everyone always has a resolution that they have EVERY year, and they ALWAYS forget about. Like eating healthier/losing weight. Well mine isn't THAT, though I have considered it a few times el.oh.el. My resolution always deals w/me and relationships, but this year I REALLY want to stick with it. I'm growing to be a BETTER me and try not to fall for UGH guys. Smh. So...we'll see how that goes.

What's On My Mind

So like ALWAYS...I've been thinking. El.oh.el. There have been things that have happened since the last post. Pretty much the usual, sex; drugs and guys. El.oh.el. jk Only ONE of those items I'm having issues with. :-) But I'm still growing and learning. I'm just trying to come into my own, and find me. So...YEAH. Haha.

Nothing Like Family

So first of all...MERRY CHRISTMAS to all. El.oh.el. I hope that everyone had a great day as I did. Today was GREAT, despite the CRAZY rain we got here. Smh. I got nice gifts, though the best gift of ALL is the birth of Jesus, I ate good food, and I spent time with the family. *sits back* I've enjoyed myself.

BREAKAWAY

So this past Saturday, i had a breakdown while driving home from school. It was long overdue. I had been feeling real UGH over the past couple of weeks. That night, I decided that I would turn my phone off for the week. I would only turn it on for Thanksgiving, but after that, it would go back off until the Sunday before I go back to school. It's Tuesday, and I kinda don't miss my phone. First of all, no one was checking for me anyways. I guy I likED won't text me back and just WON'T TEXT ME, and I'm NOT the kind of person who is going to keep trying when I'm not getting a response. No MA'M. El.oh.el. So far, I have felt no need to look at my phone. Well...actually I have, but surprisingly...only to look at the time. It's been really refreshing not to worry about anyone or anything. I'm around the people that I want to be around, so therre is no one that I want to call. Hopefully by the end of the week, there will be a change within me, and I go back to jsut being me and not worrying about STUPID GUYS, feeling on the outside and all the other sad emotions I've been feeling lately. I feel refreshed and renewd. *all smiles*...HOPEFULLY. El.oh.el.

SO MUCH TO SAY

I know this is a little late, but I voted in this year's presidential election...my FIRST, and the person I voted for...WON!!! O YEAH! GO OBAMA! GO OBAMA! El.oh.el. I was SUPER DUPER OOBER excited. To be on Jackson State's campus, with all these people gathered together watching the presidential results and celebrating...nothing could've compared. It was like the best moments. No matter who you were, everyone was hugging, high-fiving, dancing and cheering with each other for a great cause. That was one of the highest I have felt. I wish every moment could be as exciting. *sighs* But it's not. Over the past few weeks...I've been feeling UGH. BEYOND ugh actually. It's just a lot has been going on with me mentally. EVERYONE knows that I am a DEEP thinker. With the stress of financial issues, stressfrom school and future endeavors, feelings of being alone, and issues with a guy, i've been a HOT MESS lately. SMH. With this break, and another one coming up, hopefully I'll be able to get it together, and I won't have a breakdown like I did a couple days ago. MAN...that was HORRIBLE. I literally cried while driving. At that very moment I felt a release, but in no way did I feel 100%. Well...in due time.