New Years Resolution

Just in case you haven't noticed, I'm making up for the MANY times I just DON'T post things. Haha. SORRY. But Christmas is just about over, and the next holiday is New Years. Everyone always has a resolution that they have EVERY year, and they ALWAYS forget about. Like eating healthier/losing weight. Well mine isn't THAT, though I have considered it a few times el.oh.el. My resolution always deals w/me and relationships, but this year I REALLY want to stick with it. I'm growing to be a BETTER me and try not to fall for UGH guys. Smh. So...we'll see how that goes.

What's On My Mind

So like ALWAYS...I've been thinking. El.oh.el. There have been things that have happened since the last post. Pretty much the usual, sex; drugs and guys. El.oh.el. jk Only ONE of those items I'm having issues with. :-) But I'm still growing and learning. I'm just trying to come into my own, and find me. So...YEAH. Haha.

Nothing Like Family

So first of all...MERRY CHRISTMAS to all. El.oh.el. I hope that everyone had a great day as I did. Today was GREAT, despite the CRAZY rain we got here. Smh. I got nice gifts, though the best gift of ALL is the birth of Jesus, I ate good food, and I spent time with the family. *sits back* I've enjoyed myself.

BREAKAWAY

So this past Saturday, i had a breakdown while driving home from school. It was long overdue. I had been feeling real UGH over the past couple of weeks. That night, I decided that I would turn my phone off for the week. I would only turn it on for Thanksgiving, but after that, it would go back off until the Sunday before I go back to school. It's Tuesday, and I kinda don't miss my phone. First of all, no one was checking for me anyways. I guy I likED won't text me back and just WON'T TEXT ME, and I'm NOT the kind of person who is going to keep trying when I'm not getting a response. No MA'M. El.oh.el. So far, I have felt no need to look at my phone. Well...actually I have, but surprisingly...only to look at the time. It's been really refreshing not to worry about anyone or anything. I'm around the people that I want to be around, so therre is no one that I want to call. Hopefully by the end of the week, there will be a change within me, and I go back to jsut being me and not worrying about STUPID GUYS, feeling on the outside and all the other sad emotions I've been feeling lately. I feel refreshed and renewd. *all smiles*...HOPEFULLY. El.oh.el.

SO MUCH TO SAY

I know this is a little late, but I voted in this year's presidential election...my FIRST, and the person I voted for...WON!!! O YEAH! GO OBAMA! GO OBAMA! El.oh.el. I was SUPER DUPER OOBER excited. To be on Jackson State's campus, with all these people gathered together watching the presidential results and celebrating...nothing could've compared. It was like the best moments. No matter who you were, everyone was hugging, high-fiving, dancing and cheering with each other for a great cause. That was one of the highest I have felt. I wish every moment could be as exciting. *sighs* But it's not. Over the past few weeks...I've been feeling UGH. BEYOND ugh actually. It's just a lot has been going on with me mentally. EVERYONE knows that I am a DEEP thinker. With the stress of financial issues, stressfrom school and future endeavors, feelings of being alone, and issues with a guy, i've been a HOT MESS lately. SMH. With this break, and another one coming up, hopefully I'll be able to get it together, and I won't have a breakdown like I did a couple days ago. MAN...that was HORRIBLE. I literally cried while driving. At that very moment I felt a release, but in no way did I feel 100%. Well...in due time.

Let Me Tell You Bout MY BESTFRIEND

So I was in church today, and I looked down at my phone. I had a message. It was from my bestie. The message said, "If I had to thank you for everything you've done for me it would take a lifetime but I do wanna take this time out to express how much you mean Thank You for just being in my life Love You and I hope you have a blessed day <3" :-) :-) :-) oh.em.GEE. AWWWWWW. El.oh.el. My bestie means the WORLD to me. We've been knowing each other since fifth grade, but we really didn't start hanging out as much as we did until senior year of high school. And we didn't get SUPER really close until this year, our junior year of college. We talk about EVERYTHING...well ALMOST everything. But I'm so glad I have my BESTIE. It's so nice to have someone in my life that I can talk to and just hangout and have fun with. We don't spend EVERY WAKING MOMENT together, and honestly, I don't want that. We spend just enough time together. I think EVERYONE should have a bestfriend...LIKE MINE. Haha

 Until next time...

N.A.S.

Since last week, I've been encouraging my girlfriends to text guys that they like but don't really have the courage to do so. I mean I'm no expert at talking to guys either, but it's easier to give other people advice than it is to take it yourself. So a couple of nights ago, when I was helping my friend text a guy she was CRAZY about, IT HIT ME.
N.A.S. No this does NOT have anything to do with the rapper. It's an acronym that I  RANDOMLY came up with. It means Niggas Are  Simple. El.oh.el. After I thought about it it made me laugh, but it is SO TRUE. When it comes to texting, ESPECIALLY when girls text guys for the first time, they analyze EVERY LITTLE THING. (I've been a witness to this over the past few days.)We try to figure out when is the right time, what we should say, how we should say it and all that other ISH. And while our mind is going CRAZY about how we need to approach the situation, the guy calmly answers each text in what it seems like SECONDS. ...WOW... We are CRAZY. El.oh.el. SMH.
I mean have you ever text a guy for the first time, but before you text him you were freaking out on the inside about what to say and stuff? El.oh.el. I mean I have LITERALLY thrown my phone after texting a guy just so I could force myself not to be caught up in when he text me or if he even text me back. No one has probably gone to MY extreme, but...SMH. That's pretty low. #sadday
Well I'm writing this post today letting ladies know that there is no longer any reason to stress yourself over the once dreaded "FIRST TEXTS." Those days should be put behind us. We should adapt the attitudes of those dudes we stress over, and just be COOL. Whatever happens HAPPENS. And who knows, we might not be alone. They could be stressing out just as much as we are. *pauses* Or maybe not. Haha

Until next time,