BREAKAWAY

So this past Saturday, i had a breakdown while driving home from school. It was long overdue. I had been feeling real UGH over the past couple of weeks. That night, I decided that I would turn my phone off for the week. I would only turn it on for Thanksgiving, but after that, it would go back off until the Sunday before I go back to school. It's Tuesday, and I kinda don't miss my phone. First of all, no one was checking for me anyways. I guy I likED won't text me back and just WON'T TEXT ME, and I'm NOT the kind of person who is going to keep trying when I'm not getting a response. No MA'M. El.oh.el. So far, I have felt no need to look at my phone. Well...actually I have, but surprisingly...only to look at the time. It's been really refreshing not to worry about anyone or anything. I'm around the people that I want to be around, so therre is no one that I want to call. Hopefully by the end of the week, there will be a change within me, and I go back to jsut being me and not worrying about STUPID GUYS, feeling on the outside and all the other sad emotions I've been feeling lately. I feel refreshed and renewd. *all smiles*...HOPEFULLY. El.oh.el.

SO MUCH TO SAY

I know this is a little late, but I voted in this year's presidential election...my FIRST, and the person I voted for...WON!!! O YEAH! GO OBAMA! GO OBAMA! El.oh.el. I was SUPER DUPER OOBER excited. To be on Jackson State's campus, with all these people gathered together watching the presidential results and celebrating...nothing could've compared. It was like the best moments. No matter who you were, everyone was hugging, high-fiving, dancing and cheering with each other for a great cause. That was one of the highest I have felt. I wish every moment could be as exciting. *sighs* But it's not. Over the past few weeks...I've been feeling UGH. BEYOND ugh actually. It's just a lot has been going on with me mentally. EVERYONE knows that I am a DEEP thinker. With the stress of financial issues, stressfrom school and future endeavors, feelings of being alone, and issues with a guy, i've been a HOT MESS lately. SMH. With this break, and another one coming up, hopefully I'll be able to get it together, and I won't have a breakdown like I did a couple days ago. MAN...that was HORRIBLE. I literally cried while driving. At that very moment I felt a release, but in no way did I feel 100%. Well...in due time.

Let Me Tell You Bout MY BESTFRIEND

So I was in church today, and I looked down at my phone. I had a message. It was from my bestie. The message said, "If I had to thank you for everything you've done for me it would take a lifetime but I do wanna take this time out to express how much you mean Thank You for just being in my life Love You and I hope you have a blessed day <3" :-) :-) :-) oh.em.GEE. AWWWWWW. El.oh.el. My bestie means the WORLD to me. We've been knowing each other since fifth grade, but we really didn't start hanging out as much as we did until senior year of high school. And we didn't get SUPER really close until this year, our junior year of college. We talk about EVERYTHING...well ALMOST everything. But I'm so glad I have my BESTIE. It's so nice to have someone in my life that I can talk to and just hangout and have fun with. We don't spend EVERY WAKING MOMENT together, and honestly, I don't want that. We spend just enough time together. I think EVERYONE should have a bestfriend...LIKE MINE. Haha

 Until next time...

N.A.S.

Since last week, I've been encouraging my girlfriends to text guys that they like but don't really have the courage to do so. I mean I'm no expert at talking to guys either, but it's easier to give other people advice than it is to take it yourself. So a couple of nights ago, when I was helping my friend text a guy she was CRAZY about, IT HIT ME.
N.A.S. No this does NOT have anything to do with the rapper. It's an acronym that I  RANDOMLY came up with. It means Niggas Are  Simple. El.oh.el. After I thought about it it made me laugh, but it is SO TRUE. When it comes to texting, ESPECIALLY when girls text guys for the first time, they analyze EVERY LITTLE THING. (I've been a witness to this over the past few days.)We try to figure out when is the right time, what we should say, how we should say it and all that other ISH. And while our mind is going CRAZY about how we need to approach the situation, the guy calmly answers each text in what it seems like SECONDS. ...WOW... We are CRAZY. El.oh.el. SMH.
I mean have you ever text a guy for the first time, but before you text him you were freaking out on the inside about what to say and stuff? El.oh.el. I mean I have LITERALLY thrown my phone after texting a guy just so I could force myself not to be caught up in when he text me or if he even text me back. No one has probably gone to MY extreme, but...SMH. That's pretty low. #sadday
Well I'm writing this post today letting ladies know that there is no longer any reason to stress yourself over the once dreaded "FIRST TEXTS." Those days should be put behind us. We should adapt the attitudes of those dudes we stress over, and just be COOL. Whatever happens HAPPENS. And who knows, we might not be alone. They could be stressing out just as much as we are. *pauses* Or maybe not. Haha

Until next time,
 

It's a NEW DAY

HOLA! It is another school year, and I am SUPER, DUPER excited. I'm a junior this year, which means I am almost out of this bizniEE. El.oh.el. (That was a little Love and HipHop Atlanta  terminology.) Haha. This post is a LITTLE late...I KNOW. It's October. SMH. It's okay though. I'm gonna get it together.
We've only been in school for like a month and a half, but there has already been SO MUCH that has transpired. I've added new friends to my friend list, I'm trying to figure out where a couple of my friends stand, and I have also lost one. *sighs* Guess that's what happens the older you get. #FOREVERYOUNG El.oh.el. Not only has there been changes in mys social life, but in my schooling life as well.
I'm taking nice classes, more intense then my previos classes though. One of my classes is photojournalism which I LOVE. El.oh.el. I even bought me a FANCY camera. I stay taking pictures now. #OFFICIAL I'm still trying to figure out what I want to do with my life. SMH. I'll try to have that figured out before senior year though. HOPEFULLY. *sighs* There is so much that I have to talk about, that I can't POSSIBLY write it all in this post.

Until LATER...

Friday Funnies

I was just thinking about the original video, but then I stumbled onto this remix. It's FUNNY. El.oh.el. *sighs* GOOD STUFF.

ENJOY.

FRIENDS....How Many of Us Have Them

While I was in Houston visiting Shelby and hanging out with her family, one of her uncle's said that me flying out for the FIRST TIME to celebrate Shelby's b-day, showed that I was a truely good friend. That made me feel really good. I mean I guess I hadn't thought about it. I just thought of it as a cool experience, that it would be something fun. I didn't look at the bigger picture. And when I thought about it, it WAS pretty cool. Then it made me think of all of my friendships over the years. My friends from when I was younger to now, for the most part, are different. I met a group of friends that will stay with me forEVER. I mean these girls are going to be in my WEDDING. El.oh.el. I don't have a LARGE group of friends that I hangout with. It's only really 3. Crystal, Thelma, and Shelby. Then there's my bestie Bri. I don't hangout with her like that. I haven't really since college, because we're onn different schedules, but she is still a friend of mine. AND my roomie. As far as guy friends are concerned, I also only have 3: D.J., my twin Donovan, and J.B., but of COURSE I'm closer to my girls. O YEAH! El.oh.el. My friends are VERY important to me. Living on campus, I'm around them ALL THE TIME. Well...MY GIRLS. El.oh.el. But if I don't see them, I'm either texting or calling them. YEAH...THAT CLOSE. I believe EVERYONE should have somebody that they are REALLY close with, other than a relative. With all my many issues, I need cool people to talk to and just have fun with. Things can be pretty stressful at times, even as college student, el.oh.el., so I need people around me to make things not AS stressful. My friends are also there to be STRAIGHT-UP with me, and that is ALWAYS needed. El.oh.el. At this point in myy life, I just want to keep my friends close to me. I try to text, call, and see them as often as possible. These guys aren't going ANYWHERE. El.oh.el. I want to keep them involved with every aspect of my life even when our college years end. Shelby, Crystal, Thelma and I are trying to go to the same grad school. El.oh.el. YEAH...this is REAL. My daddy told me that the friends you have in highschool sometimes fall by the wayside when you graduate, but the friends you meet in college will be with you FOREVER. I love my crazy, funny, GREAT friends, and I can't wait to continue my friendship with each and everyone with them when we graduate college. I LOVE YOU GUYS!!! El.oh.el.

Untill next time,