MY B-DAY WEEKEND

So my 20th B-Day is in 3 days and I'm SUPER excited. El.oh.el. But since my B-Day falls on the Wednesday of finals, I decided to celebrate with my friends the weekend before. And oh.em.GEE. Did WE CELEBRATE. El.oh.el. My weekend pretty much started on Thursday. I had one final and I was done for the day. I chilled out on the plaza and it was SO CRAZY. I met some pretty interesting people, eventhough the school year is about to end. But that was the end of that day. Friday, like usual, NO CLASS!!! El.oh.el. I wore my slutty cute outfit and chilled out on the plaza. I had a short intermission to mentor. And of COURSE I changed my clothes. El.oh.el. After that was done though, I made my way back up to ther school. I was ESPECIALLY excited because I had FINALLY agreed to my bestfriend's offer to smoke weed with him. And what better day to be a first-tme weed smoker, but on the weed holiday, 04/20. I was excited until he told me that he already smoked. I was HOT. I told him the day before that I got off work at 4:00. Y WOULD HE DO THAT?! UGH. I was starting to sound like some kind of weed fiend, but I tried not to let that bother me. Later on that night, the girls and I went to Jazz on the Plaza, while outside, I saw my bee.eff and I gave him my ANGRY face. I couldn't keep it for long though. SMH. I had gotten over it, but now I was ready to drink. We had said that we were going to drink while the concert was going on. SMH. HORRIBLE. El.oh.el. So we decided to mix the alcohol with some slushies from Subway. I don't know who came up with that idea, but it was pretty POINTLESS because by the time we actually started drinking, we had drank the slushies already. I didn't drink all of my slushie, but I couldn't taste it anyway because I had a LOT of alcohol. THEN my friends Muffin and Tasha decided to go smoke WEED, and of COURSE we were invited. :-) I was feeling so many different things at that moment. I was excited, nervous, and scared. We got outside, and there were Muffin and Tasha. They were sitting down, and had already started smoking. My friend Crystal was the first to try. She took about three puffs because she was confused. Then she passed it to Thelma. SMH. That was a disaster. El.oh.el. I knew she was done with it after that. Then it was my turn. I took the blunt and did exactly what Muffin and Tasha told me. *sighs* "DANG. U a professional. R u sure u hvn't smoked before?" That's what one of my friends said to me. Apparently I knew what I was doing. Eventually, the alcohol and the weed was starting to kick in. I felt like I was in another world. It was so much crazy stuff that went on. It all just seems like a dream, but I DO remember all of it. I know my brother called me at after 11 p.m. saying that they were in the area and my visit. I remember craving gummy worms, my mouth was dry. It was just CRAZY. El.oh.el. It was like one of the best nights though. I had the time of my life...I THINK. El.oh.el. It was just a RANDOM night, and I LOVE randomness. The next day was a little different. I was calmer. That's probably because I was still feeling effects of the night before. El.oh.el. I chilled that whole day until my B-Day dinner and movie night. I spent some time with my friend Shelby. We went in the Fondren area and hungout. We talked about the future. It was fun. Later on I got all dolled up to celebrate my   B-Day with my girls and an added guest. El.oh.el. It was an overall GREAT night. I really enjoyed myself. It's moment like these that I cherish, especially because this school year's almost over. With three more days until my B-Day, who knows what will happen. I can't wait though. :-)

Until next time

We Have the Right, SO LET'S USE IT!!!

So this past Thursday the results for our University's elections were announced. I was happy overall for the people that won, but as far as the number of people that actually voted, I felt...some other type of way. When I saw the number of students that actually voted and compared it to the number of students that attend the school, the numbers were HORRIBLE. I mean...I just didn't understand why people didn't vote. It was literally only 13% of people that voted. Out of over 9,000 students, only a little over 1,000 voted. ...WTFlip?! It especially blew my mind to look at the breakdown of the number of people from the different classes that voted. For one candidate, it was only 41 freshmen that voted. REALLY?! There were more AKA that crossed this year. I see more than that number of people in a DAY. Like...this is CRAZY. It would be over a hundred people at the hotspots on Friday or passing through the plaza on a regular day if it feels nice outside. This showed that our generation really doesn't care. I mean...it wasn't to long ago blacks couldn't even vote. Now we're given an opportunity to, but no one wants to. Like do the young people today just not care what goes on in the world around them??? I mean...I know it's a college election, but STILL. These people are going to be put in place to represent our classes and our school as a whole. JUST VOTE. El.oh.el. And this speaks VOLUMES, seeing as how the presidential election is ALSO this year. If students couldn't vote for a simple college election, how are we ever going to get them out to vote for the PRESIDENTIAL election??? Our voices need to be heard as well, but we can't get our points across if we don't even bother to participate in what is going on around us. SMH. It just really disappoints me to see that our generation is only caught up in superficial things, such as appearance. They don't care about the real issues. They have no desire to make a difference. I mean...we CAN make a difference. This incident made me want to improve myself. I mean...all it takes is one person right? I was going to be that one person. I decided to go to the SGA office so that I could fill up one of the open positions. I felt really good. I want to make a difference, but I know it's not going to happen if I just sit around doing NOTHING. I just hope the rest of our generation realizes the same thing. Make a change in the world. Start TODAY. All it takes is one small step. Well...
Until next time.

This Makes Me Laugh

These videos are FUNNY. You guys should watch.

The World We Live In

SO...it's been a LOT of stuff that has happened over the past few days. A lot of STUPID stuff to be exact. First off, the whole Trayvon Martin story. *pauses* For those people who HAVEN'T heard, Trayvon Martin was this 17 y.o. BLACK kid who was shot in the face by this Hispanic man. Now...THOSE are the facts. This story happened on Feb. 26, 2012, but it wasn't until recently that the story gained publicity. It was with the help of the media and people's opinions that this story gained notoriety of being this racially based murder. I don't know exactly WHAT to believe. I mean...there are some that say Martin was being followed by the shooter, Zimmerman. and then I hear some people say that Zimmerman was in danger. One thing that seems to be consistent is that Zimmerman thought that Martin looked suspicious because Martin was walkin around an affluent neighborhood with a hoodie on. *pauses* Zimmerman apparently took matters into his own hands because he's the 'neighborhood watchman' which is such a prestigious AUTHORITATIVE position. *noted sarcasm* Like this guy isn't a cop, a sheriff, a NOTHING. He shouldnt've been doing ANYTHING. When this case first got publicized, people were angry with Zimmerman. But this case has gone WAY past that. People are wondering why the REAL police didn't take this case seriously. They didn't investigate this case thoroughly. The case was 'half-assed' by the police. I mean...they IMMEDIATELY assumed that Zimmerman did nothing wrong, though the 911 police calls say otherwise. I just want justice for Trayvon Martin, and the only way that is going to happen is if everyone stop putting their opinions in the story, and listen to the FACTS. With the FACTS, that will help us to determine what REALLY happened, and then judge otherwise. This past weekend, there was a tragedy that hit closer to home. Nolan Ryan Henderson, a freshman at JSU, was shot at the Palisades Apartment. *sighs* I don't know the FULL details of this story, but whatever they are, I'm sure they make the results even MORE pointless. It has been said that this was caused by some POINTLESS dispute. It was also stated that Henderson wasn't even the INTENDED TARGET. *pauses* Like this really BLOWS my mind. Why do people resort to violence for situations that could be TALKED out? Honestly, I feel that if you have to use a gun to solve your problems, you're a 'BITCH....ASS...NIGGA.' #justsaying I mean...things don't get THAT DEEp where you feel that you have to take someone's life. This really preturbs me. I mean I really wish that I could understand what goes on in people's minds. Things like this should NOT HAPPEN. WHY do they happen?! Acts like this are SO SENSELESS, and they do nothing but make things WORSE. Now we are left with a student that we will NEVER see again, a FAMILY who will NEVER see their son/brother/cousin/nephew, and someone who took an innocent person's life. SMH. *sighs* I just want to have a moment of silence for the world and the CRAZY people in it...

*sighs* I know things will never be PERFECT, but I wish senseless acts of violence didn't have to happen. It doesn't matter if you personally knew a victim or just heard about it on the news, we all feel when an innocent person loses his or her life. I just pray that we can all unite instead of fighting with each other. The world would be a MUCH better place.

Until next time...

Take It SLOW

So I was with my parents one day, and we went to visit my uncle. We hadn't seen him in a while, though he stays around the corner from us, SMH, so we thought it would be nice to pay him a visit. When we got over there, they started talking about what was going on in life and other jazz. One thing that came up was the fact that my cousin and her husband are no longer together. I was so shocked to here this information. See my cousin was dating this guy like her senior year of high school. They were together A LOT. He was a really good guy, and he was pretty cool. Then things got serious, because he asked her to marry him. They were 19. Sure they were young, but they seemed like a good match. After they got married, they got this nice house and even had a baby. Things looked GOOD. I mean...I was sure they would've stayed together longer than THIS. Now they're 21, separated, and have a one year old son. When I was talking about it with my mom, she was basically telling me how most of the women in our family have had had marriage issues. They got married TOO YOUNG and ended up divorcing. My mom was the only girl on her side that hasn't been divorced. *My aunt, my mom's sister hasn't been either, but she's also never been married.* I just don't want that kind of life for myself. I mean...I know we don't really know how our life is going to turn out, but I don't want to rush things. A few months back I was having a MID mid-life crisis, but now I see that there is no rush. I mean...I'm 19!!! I should be enjoying life and not stressing about having a family, getting a great job, and all those other things. I mean sure, I'm still concerned about my future, but not to the point that I'm going CRAZY about it. Sure I'm SINGLE, but that's okay...NOW. El.oh.el. When that time comes, it will come. Things just take time. We just have to be patient enough so that we can allow the GREAT things to happen in our lives. When we start to rush things, everything gets screwed up, and we are left feeling UGH. And that's not a good feeling. El.oh.el. I know. Everyone who is in my life now are the ones who are important to me. I'm sure with time I will find that extra SPECIAL person that I want to be in my life FOREVER, but as of right now I'm just being me. I hangout with my friends, I'm in school, and trying to enjoy life one day at a time. It's better this way...FOR ME. I'm happy with how my life is going, and I wouldn't change a thing. :-) El.oh.el.

Well, until next time.....

Life of A Single Girl

SO...I've been single for a WHILE now, and its been quite an experience. I've met some great guys, and I've also met some guys that I wish I HADN'T met. El.oh.el. SMH. I've never actually experienced the whole DATING SCENE, because I never was a relationship kind of girl, until I got to college and met my first boyfriend. A few months after we broke up, all these guys started talking to me. They like came out of NOWHERE. I talked to ALL of the guys, because you never know what can happen. When I talk to these guys though, it is so weird. My conversations sound like anything between a job interview and a competition. I mean I'm new to this and all, but this just doesn't seem RIGHT! El.oh.el. Eye.dee.kay. I just want something that is genuine. I don't want to force anything. All I know is that I'm not going to make it easy for these guys. I mean...I'm a complex girl. El.oh.el. It's going to take more than a few sweer text messages to impress me. I'm deeper than that. My last and FIRST relationship taught me a lot. It was a great relationship with a GREAT guy, but it was also unexpected. Never in a million years did I think I was going to be with him. So that realtionship just made me realize that I should keep my eyes open. Who KNOWS what could happen. Appearance isn't EVERYTHING, but I'm not going to be with an UGLY person either. El.oh.el. It's just a process, and I think I'm ready for the journey. Well....UNTIL NEXT TIME.

Catching Up

oh.em.GEE. It has been SO LONG. SMH. I'm SORRY. It's just that I've been SO BUSY. Like it has honestly been something going on EVERYDAY. But now that I have a little free time, I'm gonna catch you all up on what's been going on with me. (Of course this will be the SHORT version.) El.oh.el. SO...hmmm....WHERE DO I START??? Well...OKAY. I went through some trials of FAITH *sighs* For those people that DON'T know, I'm big on signs and that sort of stuff. I mean...I believe GOD talks us to us through signs. We just have to recognize them. ANYWAYZ. My friend and I were going through  something and we were frustrated by obstacles that we had to go through. SMH. What's life without obstacles??? El.oh.el. Well...like any other person, we started to get concerned and tried to take it upon ourselves to solve the problem. But when we thought time was over for us, GOD swooped in and saved us. *pauses* Isn't HE GREAT??? :-)  That just proved that I have to have more faith and let GOD do what HE does. He comes at the RIGHT time, even if it is ot the time that we WANTED HIM to come. *sighs* OKAY. Then there were my guy issues....X0 (This is my screaming dramatically face.) El.oh.el. I met a cool guy, who is a #lowkey freak, a guy I was talking to I found to be CARAZY, and I told my ex how I still have feelings for him, but he brushed it off. SMH. I just need a BREAK. So I've been turning my phone off more, so I can disconnect myself from people. It's pretty helpful. It's been working so far. El.oh.el. WELP...that's the gist of it all.
Until next time...and I PROMISE that I won't way FOREVER to blog again. :-)